Category: Personal Development


“Rise, rise again, until lambs become lions.”

It was one of those mornings. I was curled up in my undersized bed, head and feet stretching the mosquito net, eyes closed, freezing. The temperature dropped over night and all I had was my tropical sleeping bag. “Why did they have to run the trains so early?” I asked myself, after being woken up by the horns from the train yard one street over.

Right then, my alarm goes off… 5:15am. Patting all over the bed beside me I find it and quickly switch it off. “Man, I really don’t want to get up” are the first words I utter to begin the day. I switch on my headlamp and look up at the net above me brightly illuminated against the faint shine of the metal roof.

The last few weeks can be summed up with one word: “challenging”. After a real, detailed profit and loss analysis was done and the picture at my partner organization looked very grim.

Coming in at the beginning of the project, I knew margins were very tight, and that costs for transportation and the cost to store 50 kg bags of poultry feed were high. There are many brands of poultry feed to choose from and pricing is extremely competitive. The price of raw materials for poultry feed also seemed to be on the increase.

To increase growth of the business my initial assumption was to grow the capacity of the business by implementing systems, improving processes and training their staff how to use tools readily available to them on computers. Even if profit margins were small, increasing management capacity could allow opening more outlets, improve profit, increase employment, and better support poultry farmers. It seemed to be working. The accounting wasn’t yet clamped down but it seemed that increasing volume of sales would be effective and new locations were being sited for future expansion.

Then we crunched the numbers and it was clear that the underlying assumption of my strategy did not survive the latest price increases and drop in sales.

I began to question, could I have prevented this? What was in my circle of influence, my circle of control? Now, many of these people I’ve worked with are at risk of losing their jobs unless we find a way to bring things out of loss.

To know that the job is to make it all work against all these forces can make staying in and sleeping for the week seem really attractive. Then I think of my colleagues who face the same challenges day-to-day. What’s that we all believe in? “Courageously commit”… right…time to get out of bed.

I was pulling out on the gravel road that leads to the main highway outside Kitwe. At my first turn-off I saw women and children walking beside the road. The early morning sunlight just breaking through the thick canopy of the trees made it difficult to see everyone clearly. But I was able to make out their arms fully extended from the shoulder, shaking their open hands up and down at the wrist signaling they wanted a lift.

“Clutch, shift to neutral and brake” I consciously thought to myself, being new to driving a manual diesel vehicle and quickly rolled to a stop beside them. “We are going to the Luanshya turn off” they said. “Aweee-kay” I replied with a smile and thumbs up. In the rear view mirror, I watched as the first group threw the bags from their heads into the back of the pick-up and climbed in. The children pushing themselves up and reaching their feet as far as they could to get over the side walls, almost falling into the trunk shortly afterward.

“Clutch, first gear…” I was thinking to myself until I looked into the rear view mirror again. Squinting, I peered far on the gravel road stretching far behind me, criss-crossed with shadows from the tall trees lining both sides. Silhouettes of children waving away from me was all I saw towards a woman who seemed to be walking as fast as she could towards me. To get a better look I turned to look over my right shoulder… and saw the door frame. “You’re driving on the right side Anthony, look behind over your left shoulder.” I said to myself and turned the other way.

There was the old woman, hunched over by years of working, coming out of the shadows. The women already in the trunk moved around to give space and grabbed the bags that the children were carrying beside her. Stumbling into the back despite being helped by everyone she sat down and I saw a glimpse of relief just before she smiled at everyone else in the back. Two loud knocks on the roof of the cab, and then I began to drive off.

As I released the clutch and stepped on the gas I reached down to the crank on the door and cracked the window a little more open. Laughter and chatter could be heard amongst the sound of rubber tire crushing gravel and the loud whine of the diesel engine. “Oops, need to shift up. Clutch, 3rd gear, gas.”

We were picking up speed on the gravel road, the grass between the two red dirt tracks disappearing faster under the hood. The flashes of sunlight light through the shadows of trees and the clanging of keys against the steering column quickened their rhythms as the road curved eastward. Then, BAM! We broke out of the trees into a pasture and everything in front of me disappeared behind the direct sunlight that now illuminated the thin film of dust that collected on the windshield. After pulling on the arm to the right of the steering wheel and unintentionally signaling a right turn, I flicked on the wipers using the arm on the left side of the wheel and was able to see again through streaks of dirt now smeared across the windshield.

I saw a merger ahead and slowed down looking cautiously through the trees to see if there was a speeding vehicle about to break in front of me. There wasn’t and again I stepped on the gas. “40km/h, 45km/h… 50km/h” the dials read now that I was on the main gravel road. It was wide enough to have two cars side-by-side. Being cold in the morning, I became conscious of the fact that I may be going too fast for those behind me. Glancing at the rear view mirror, I saw that they had tucked the cloths they were wrapped in tighter and were mostly curled more to fight off the cold. The plum of dust grew thicker and higher behind as my speed increased. But the people were all were still smiling though clenched lips and squinted eyes from the dust and looking into the eastern morning sunlight. So far so good.

Continuing on, I was slowly veering the truck to the left and to the right side of the road mindful of being as smooth as possible for those riding in the back. A few times on this route taught me where I need to position myself to avoid the large stones that protruded up from the ground.

Coming up the final hill, we began to see the tops of large cargo trucks speeding past the opening between the tree line ahead of us. We were approaching the main highway. Just before the pavement, I turned off to the side, turned on the hazard signals and parked the truck. Everyone jumped off and the old woman who raced to the truck at the beginning of our journey walked up beside me. Her hunch allowed her to only raise her head slightly above the lower frame of my window. But the size of her smile was unmistakable. She raised her arms high in the air then clasped her hands together in front of her saying “na toe tela, sana” (Literally: I’m thankful, very much). “Aye, em queye. Muyende wino” I shouted back (which, I think means: Sure thing, go well).

I will always remember being out in rural areas, biking or walking those long distances against the wind, against thirst and against those rolling hills. Every time a pick-up truck stopped to lend me a lift, it was a God-send.

That morning, it felt nice to pay the favour forward.

My new office

It was June 1st and I was on the move. It was the day I was going to meet my new partner organization for the first time. A Canadian friend offered to drive me up to Kitwe, the city I would be calling home for the next 6 months since she was heading in that direction. That morning we jumped into the car she was borrowing, the aptly named “fun mobile” because it made travel an adventure and the other proposed names: “death car” and “death trap” didn’t seem like they captured everything the car could provide.

We cut in and out of Lusaka’s morning traffic as we made our way north. We finally started to gain some speed as we began to move against the incoming northern traffic. It quickly sank in that I’ve never been North of Lusaka. We were still in the city but we were passing shops, stations and neighborhoods I’ve never seen before. Six months of experience in Zambia… and I only know the East and the South.

I caught the last glimpses of the the buildings shrinking away in the side view mirror. Now, large commercial farms were all I saw. This reminded me of my past travels towards Eastern Province with one key difference. These farms didn’t stop appearing. There were villages, yes. But, they were far and few between. It was clear that this trip was shaping up to be different than before. At some stops I couldn’t understand the local language which was now Bemba, instead of the Nyanja I was accustomed to.

As we drove, it was hard to ignore that the road we were using would be better put to use as the proving grounds for future lunar vehicles. We swerved across the entire width of the road avoiding the 4-inch deep potholes that came up quickly. The patchwork of road repairs were indistinguishable at a distance and looked just as menacing. But she kept her foot on the pedal. A few times earlier, letting up on the throttle made our fun mobile lose power all together.

Eventually, after a few roadside stops and conversations we were almost in Kitwe. I was amazed by the divided highway leading into the city. We made a right-turn into a compound and pulled up to the wide open warehouse door. Inside I saw workers moving and loading bags of chicken feed.

We got out of the fun mobile and, before the owners had time to come out and greet us, I went over the key points of our terms of reference. “Responsibilities: analyze and improve current business systems, pilot a franchise business model for expansion.” I reminded myself about my personal goals of increasing access to better quality feed for farmers and increasing opportunities for business ownership and employment.

Closing the door, I glance down and realize that I’m not well dressed. My shirt is half-tucked in and wrinkled from the seatbelt I used to strap myself in extra tight. At my feet are well dusted hiking shoes. “You must be Anthony”, I hear from in front of me. I glance up and see my new counterpart for the first time. Cracking a smile in return, I shoot back “Yes! How are you?” I’ve arrived and began my next few months in Zambia on the Business Development Services team of EWB.

Reverse Culture Shock

Putting this together is an an attempt to preempt the almost certain reverse culture shock I’ll soon experience. The last few days back in Canada have been great, but little indicators of impending doom lurk.

A coping method I developed while in Zambia was to cartoon things during my most traumatic and difficult times. See my spider battle and my work with water :) .

So this is my experience on my first few days back in Canada.


Jumping off the plane and heading home was an interesting feeling. It felt like I just left yesterday. But after about 30 or more hours of travel in the same clothes it was time to get cleaned up. I hopped into the shower in great anticipation of the best shower I’d experience in months.

I didn’t realize how strong the water pressure was here in Canada and was almost taken off my feet.

It was almost like Kramer on Seinfeld.

After the shower I went to brush my teeth and it didn’t connect that the water pressure in the shower was a good indicator of what the water pressure would be from the tap. It pretty much took my toothbrush right out of my hand.

I later found my big green mug from work in the cupboard which was a great relief. I haven’t had a real good cup of coffee in ages.

But, strong coffee isn’t a good idea when you’re still dealing with jet lag and lack of sleep.

Last night I visited a few friends and turns out they’re all way ahead in their “life stage”.

The other day I actually went into the national office to say hi and catch up with some work. But, I didn’t realize how conditioned I was to think that in an office environment any greeting said in English was directed at me. Back here in Canada, this isn’t always the case.

But ultimately, there’s no place like home. It was nice to sit in a TTC bus for 30 minutes. The lack of leg room and space on these new buses brings me right back to riding mini-buses in Zambia.

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